What a difference

I was thinking back this weekend to approximately this time last year.  What a difference a year makes.  This time last year I had smaller "girls."  This time last year I dreaded going to work every day.  This time last year I was overwhelmed with thinking about someone I couldn't have.  Now today I love my new girls.  Today I look forward to work everyday.  And today the person I was thinking of last year hardly crosses my mind.  Today I feel hopeful for what the future may bring instead of just figuring out how to get through each day without a breakdown.  Today I believe some people don't stay in your life for a reason.  Maybe they are making room for people that are a better fit.  And those people teach you lessons along the way and they serve a purpose for the time they are in your life.  I truly didn't become as strong as I could be until those people were no longer in my life.   It may have taken almost a year for the "ah ha" moment to arrive but what's important is that it did.  I feel a new self confidence I didn't have before and even though I say stupid things that and make myself cringe sometimes, I am trying to adopt the philosophy of not caring what others think.  I am being me and if they don't like me nothing I can do about it.  It is amazing how much less stressful life is when you stop worrying about things you can't control.

Tomorrow I am starting a six week boot camp class.  This is the first time getting back to the gym since my surgeries, so in about nine months.  Hoo-ahh I guess?

Make it happen March

This weekend Julie and I went to see Safe Haven, it was really good!  I had a list of things I wanted to get done but when I got home Saturday night I got a migraine right as I went to bed.  It was the worst one I've had in awhile, all I wanted to do was sleep.  Two very expensive migraine meds and a leftover Demerol later and still was fighting my migraine.  It lasted about 12 hours.  So my to-do list for today didn't get touched. 

-In other news I am recently addicted to Twitter and Instagram.  I find myself thinking of everything in hashtags. 

-This is "make it happen March."  Time to get back to eating right and the gym.  My partner in on this action is going to motivate me even though she is 4 hours away.  :) 

-I am soooo ready for spring.  Being snowed in was no fun.  Attempting to drive in the massive snow the day it hit was no fun.  I am ready to be sitting out on a patio somewhere relaxing in the warm weather.