Shyla the druggie

Most of you know I went under the knife yesterday for a little perk up of the girls. I am sparing you the photos, lol. So my nerves didn't really kick in until I got to the office yesterday morning but I did take a Valium the night before in case I was too anxious to sleep. Can I tell you how amazing that drug is? So I get to the office thinking the same thing that went thru my head 15 years ago when I went to the hospital to have Caylea...I really kinda just wanted to go home and avoid any pain. Too late for that. My mom dropped me off and the nurse started my IV in a nice relaxing room with a recliner. She had trouble with my right arm and after digging around she finally went to the left arm. It was about that time I realized I was very close to passing out. Another lady came in for me to sign more release papers and I basically said I would sign whatever she wanted me too but I desperately needed a bathroom. I signed and she pointed me to the bathroom where I ended up laying on the floor for ten minutes. (don't worry, the bathroom and office is spotless so laying on the floor did not seem gross) finally made it back to the room where the gave me four pain pills. I vaguely rember the dr. drawing all over me but I could barely stand at that point with all the drugs. Somehow I got back to the operating room and remember them putting up that blue drape so I couldn't see. I think I slept thru most of it but I know I said a few things. I asked the dr. if he was doing ok, asked the nurses if they get discounts, and can't remember much else. I do remember saying at one point I could feel something, something like a scalpel cutting me but they fixed that right away. Then I was asking "is that all, we are done" and they said yes. Then the nurses cleaned all the iodine off me and I told them thank you for being so nice to me. I remember them talking about how great I looked and the dr. said I would be shocked I had the volume I do without implants. They wrapped me up tight (after complimenting my choice of pants and pretty undies) No pain at all yesterday, like none! Slept all day yesterday, just couldn't keep my eyes open. Today is a bit more sore but nothing unbearable. I got my dressing off today and yikes, lots of blood overnight but the doc said it was normal. Doc also said he impressed himself with this one. From what I can see I looooooove the results! Worth every penny. Loved my dr. and his staff and nurses! I also love my pain pills. I can definitely feel things when I move around now so I am moving slow. Pretty good excuse to lay around and be lazy right now! I just find myself very tired very easily. Overall though I would do it again in a heartbeat. Loooove the dr. I chose! Oh and no drug induced texting, yay me!

Colorado Weekend

 Michelle, Danielle and I had a wonderful trip out to Colorado for Sarah's wedding!  The weather was perfect and we all adored Colorado. 

 All the little towns were so cute.  Michelle and I in Old Town Fort Collins in the photo above.

 We had the BEST mexican food I've ever had while we were there at Palamino's.  I want it right now.  So amazing.  Hilarious waitress and a table behind us that liked to use the "f" word, a lot.  Margaritas were yummy, and we even had sopapillas for dessert, yum. 

 Pre-wedding photos

 I think I carried my camera around the whole wedding and managed to not take any photos?  Not sure how that happened but maybe the white wine had something to do with it.  We had SO much fun at the wedding and LOVED the photobooth.  Sarah and Phil both looked awesome and we had a blast! 

 The day after the wedding we went up to Estes Park and drove into Rocky Mountain National Park.  We got stuck by several Elk in the road.  Michelle and I jumped out of the car to take photos. 

 And this guy came trotting right up along the road...we kind of high tailed it back into the car.  They are really large animals.  :)

 Thanks to Danielle for driving because we reminded her several times to keep her eyes on the road since there were no guard rails and oh, only a HUGE drop off the side of the mountain. 

 Such pretty scenery

 Our last day we made it to Boulder, another cute little town to walk around in.  We found this yummy cafe for lunch. We ate outside every chance we got. 

 Cute stores everywhere!

Sunset after dinner at Nordy's BBQ.  More great food.  Seriously good food in Colorado.  This post was a bad idea actually because I had cereal for dinner and now I could go for some enchiladas, macaroni and cheese, and an egg salad sandwich.  We discovered why Sarah loves it on Colorado.  And I was super impressed with how pet friendly they are, pet bowls and dogs everywhere!  Such a fun and relaxing trip.  So glad we decided to go and we are so happy for Sarah and Phil! 

Waiting

I am laying in my 82 degree house waiting on the AC guy to get here and hoping he gets here early in the five hour window they gave me. I got home from Chicago yesterday to a very hot house and have felt like crap to top it off. migraines and heat do not mix. last night I played with the circuit breakers, then cried when it still wouldn't work. Managed to sleep with the help of Advil PM but woke up feeling icky. headache snuck back up on me today. Took a two hour nap and the headache is still holding on. I hate headaches and broken ACs.

Reunited and it feels so good

First day back at the gym after a long break and it felt fantastic. Back at it.

May is about over!

I am still figuring out this iPad and adding pics is something I can't quite figure out yet. Lisa, Jona, & I had a nice weekend in St. Louis. Complete with a guy coming over and placing his nose on Lisa's shoulder forseveral awkward moments. Never a dull moment! This week I am working two days then off for my bday and trip to Colorado with Michelle and Danielle for Sarah's wedding! As I turn another year older I want way less drama in my life. I am too old for it! I am worn out from drama!

Happy puppy birthday

 This week was the pups birthdays.  Here they are scoping out their birthday toys on the counter.  They each got a toy that matched their new food mats and bowls. 

And they also got an iPad 2.  Wait, that was for me.  I'm kinda addicted to it.  Specifically addicted to the Words and Scramble with Friends games. As a few of you who I spent playing virtual games with all weekend are well aware.  :)  Looking forward to a 4 day work week then a 4 day weekend!  Heading to St. Louis this weekend to see Jona and Lisa, can't wait! 

Letting Go

 Lately I've been thinking a lot about how to let go and all these sayings I've found sum it up pretty well.  I can't make someone care, I can't change someone, I can't control situations, I need to be supportive, and I have to remember that people are human, they make mistakes, and unfortunately people change and I can't control that. And unfortunately, sometimes as people change other people get hurt.  Heck I changed.  I know someone that had a hard time letting go of me and nothing he did could change the fact that I changed.  And the only one who suffered by not letting me go is him.  So when I look it from that perspective, I do not want to be the one suffering. When I see him so miserable all I think about is how glad I am not to have to be around that.  So why should I be miserable and have people think it would be bad to be around me?  Besides my person I am missing is the one missing out and the best revenge is for me to be happy.  I feel sorry for him not to have me in his life, because I am awesome. 

 Life isn't always an easy ride but how much I suffer is up to me.  Sure I can be angry and sad and I'll have my moments but why be miserable.  It is no fun and it certainly isn't going to change anything. 

 Giving someone so much control over my emotions is giving someone power over me and nobody should ever have that much power over me.  So I'm taking my power back.

 Brilliant advice. 

 This is true, life is life and how I react is up to me.  

Holding on is too exhausting I'm telling ya!