Hope

this is true, cause I am so darn tired of crying lately.

"Eyes that do not cry, do not see."

A Shyla moment

Does anyone else love walking around Wal-Mart and Target when they start to put all the back to school/dorm supplies and decorations out? They have THE cutest little things. Like picture frames made out of cork board, magnetic dry erase boards in cute little patterns, colorful magnets. Who really needs a frame with a cork board around it, you aren't going to want to stick a bunch of stuff on there and cover up the picture. But still so cute and I want it! The colors are always fun, pinks, greens, purples. Why don't they sell fun stuff in those colors all the time? I am especially obsessed with organization stuff like these

So....who knew an ethernet cable and a phone cable weren't the same thing? I figured it out after I spent an hour trying to set up my wireless router and wondering why it wouldn't connect to the internet. Called the cable company tech support and they told me they showed my modem working but didn't show my router....well that is because the cord I just bought at Wal-Mart is apparently not right and I somehow managed to make it fit in the holes. I know you guys miss my "Shyla moments" right? But now after 4 long days I have internet again...it was unpleasantly unbearable for me not to be able to get online, and absolute torture for Caylea!

Had a really really good counseling session yesterday....it was my last freebie and I am now convinced I should have gone to counseling a long time ok and really don't want to stop going. She really helped me realize some truths about some of the things I am feeling and I walked out feeling so much better than I did when I walked in. I had 6 freebies and feel like I was just getting started. I wonder if it is draining for a counselor to listen to other people's issues all day along.

Stamina, journaling, coloring, and other randomness

Quotes found once again on this blog.
"Just because you can take it doesn't mean you should. Stamina does not always equate to bliss."

Love love love this one!

It's funny to me how I will run across a quote and it feels like it was just said just for me/my situation. I wonder how we all take the meanings in quotes differently.

I may have said this before but I'm finding blogging somewhat theraputic. It's like a public journal. Which means of course my content is filtered. :) I'm discovering lately I have a zillion thoughts running through my head at once. I have been loving my Blackberry and using it as an electronic journal for my random thoughts. Then I have a journal by my bed which isn't a "write a paragraph" type of journal but just randomness. Then there is my running journal in my purse. So all in all I'm storing/collecting journals all over the place! (so again sorry if I tend to repeat anything...it's multiple-journaling syndrome)

So to summarize the past few days:

-Came home to find the big screen TV gone to a new home.

-Had been looking forward to a long weekend

-Am now working OT all weekend

-Mostly in order to save for a new big TV. Somehow the 19" one just doesn't fit quite right in the living room.

-It's like I went from watching shows in a movie theater to watching shows in the waiting room of a dr's office

-Had a terrible run

-Had a really great run after I could barely muster up the motivation to hit the trail with my pounding headache

-I just reached a point on the trail where I felt the need to stop and walk when this guy runs by me pushing a stroller. His kid says "hi" to me and he says "Good job!" Funny how this comment from a random stranger motivated me to start running again. It was nice.

-Had some deep conversation with a good friend

-I think I got some new "quotes" out of these conversations

-Had this overwhelming urge to buy a coloring book and crayons and color

-Again feeling like I just want to clean and organize everything in the house...the fridge, my jewelry box, the closet, my dresser drawers, the hall closest, Caylea's room, powerwash the house...I could keep going

-Felt like I was teetering on the edge of someone saying just the right thing to push me over and I wouldn't be able to hold in the tears. Came close, but managed to stay on the edge.

-Went to the dentist, hadn't been in a year and had put it off as long as possible. Thought for sure I had lost a filling, nope, no cavities or lost fillings! I did a few fist pumps with a "Yes!" after my dentist told me that. They must not get that reaction much based on the look they gave me. Since I am new to him he doesn't understand my dental woes. My old dentist would've high fived me.

-Been racking my brain to figure out who my new dentist reminds me of. I'm pretty sure it is a cartoon character but I just can't pinpoint it.

-Laying in the dentist chair I told the nurse it would be a much more enjoyable experience if the chair were a massaging chair. May make poking around in the mouth a bit trickier but would be enjoyable none the less.

-Now I am off to paint my toes hot pink. No pedicures till I pay for a new big screen!

Sunday Quotes

More quotes I love found on this blog.

This weekend:

-worked

-cleaned out my desk at work, finally feel better organized

-watched Sex and the City movie, never seen an episode of the show but really liked the movie, put the seasons on my netflix list

-relaxed at the pool, can now feel the areas I missed with the sunscreen. The irony is I made sure to really hit the places I burned last week...and somehow managed to miss new areas

-Ran on the trail which feels ten degrees cooler than elsewhere

-Ran the longest distance I've ever run at one time, about 5.5 miles. However there was walking during the last couple miles and I think I only made it because I carried a water bottle.

-drank Gatorade for the first time in my life. Fruit punch = yummy. Why have I never had this before?

-also yummy is Black Cherry Dasani, Grape Aquafina, and Raspberry Aquafina.

-find it funny that all I crave is beverages right now in this heat and not food. Today I drank a Lime Dasani water, sweet tea from McAlisters, fruit punch Gatorade, and chocolate milk.

-Made a special trip to the gas station that has Grape Aquafina and bought 2, but was too full of sweet tea to drink it.

-had a new appreciation for the air conditioning in the house

-sorta freaked out thinking I had a bee in the house....I think it was more of just a large ladybug. It was hard to tell after I smashed it. Lucky for me it was between the window and the blinds, I am sure it would have been hilarious to watch me attack this thing. I thought "I got one shot to kill this thing or it is gonna come buzzing after my ass." I must've looked like the girls did when they were playing Double Dutch jump rope, trying to get it at just the right time.
-sorta freaked out in the backyard taking Jazz out, I swear this bird was coming for me. It was hovering around and I looked up at it and it just started flying lower and lower right towards me. Jazzie thought it was great and was hoping to play with the damn thing. I however thought for sure that I was seriously going to get attacked by this bird. Because that would just be my luck right now.
-realized that spending time in front of my laptop at home makes me feel like I didn't really have a break from work. So on that note time to turn the laptop off...goodnight!

Recently...

saw The Proposal and laughed my butt off. Sandra Bullock singing a Yin Yang Twins song, all I'm saying. Oh, and Ryan Reynolds.

discovered running in high humidity and 90 degree temps really sucks

enjoyed some alone time

wondered

watched a marathon of The Office Season 2

did a lot of laundry

laughed

cried

have become addicted to very random journaling

realized I tend to cuss a lot when running

ran through the spray grounds after my run

tried a brownie batter blizzard instead of my usual m&m

been burning a pomegranite candle that smells great

could not stop eating mesquite barbeque Lays Stax chips

cleaned up the scrapbook room and feeling ready to start a new project

enjoyed standing outside in the rain

pondered

been confused

saw things clearly

confused again

hope it all makes sense someday

appreciating the little things

felt the need to organize everything starting with the pantry

people watched at the pool

kicked myself for not bringing a beverage to the pool

can't get enough sweet tea

trying to remember what's important

loving my Michael Scott bobblehead on my desk

feel asleep at 9pm on a Saturday

sent more texts in a month than Caylea, weird

Inspiration

I found this quote posted on this blog that I read all the time...I love it.

Pretties

So this weekend finally got the front flower area in much better shape. Still need to buy another bag of mulch or two but I am digging it. (ha ha no pun intended) Kind of hard to see details but you get the general idea. Went with red mulch and I think it looks great.

I will take some better pictures.

On my birthday we went to the Botanical Gardens in St. Louis. It was a major pain to get around the city with 40 shutdown. The gardens were pretty and oh yeah, PF Changs. Enough said.

I love this picture

I love this picture of Caylea

Hope you all have a great week! I'm heading to Bloomington this weekend, can't wait! Hope to see many of you there!