Heroine of my own life

So I found this quote and got to thinking, I focus a lot on what I am missing out on in the relationship I am missing. But I need to think of what he is missing out on and realize he is the one who should be sad. I have met some major goals in the past two years. I finished my CPCU, paid off my credit card debt, and finally got the surgery I have wanted for years. I have stayed committed to some huge goals these past two years. I have been able to travel a lot and finished a half marathon. Maybe I am just too much for him, lol. I have met some major goals and yet i focus too much on what makes me sad. I'm not trying to toot my own horn but I think most of us don't give ourselves enough credit. Now it is time for me to think of what's next, I have a few new goals in mind. And when I meet those goals it will just be more for someone to think they let a good one get away.

So...Sorry bout those pics...

Some of you were blessed with pictures of my boobs after surgery. Here is what I have realized happened during the past three days while I have been heavily drugged. - I watched two episodes of True Blood that I had been anxiously awaiting from Netflix. I had to watch them again today because I have no memory of what happened in the episodes when I watched them Friday. - I texted a lot with really bad spelling. I had to go back today and re-read what my texts were because again, couldn't recall. Hence finding pictures of boobs that I sent to a few of you! Thank goodness I didn't send boob pics to my boss! - I managed to not send emotional texts to the people I didn't want to send emotional texts to. Didn't send any to that person actually and I am quite proud of myself. - after checking my email I found a shipping confirmation from Old Navy. So I apparently drugged shopped online. I have zero recollection of doing this but I now have 5 pairs of flip flops on the way. Yes, I guess I thought I needed 5 new pairs of flip flops. I also got a shirt and a hoodie. Seriously? I was worried about texting, didn't think shopping would be an issue. I have no idea when I woke up and thought "time to get on old navy.com!". Random. - I think I talked to a few people on the phone but really am not sure. - I had some crazy, wacky dreams. - so grateful I have not had the emotional breakdown that is common on day 3 post surgery! Maybe it is because I had an emotional breakdown everyday of the week leading up to the surgery. I am sure I will still have one soon. So today I was hoping to avoid taking any more pain pills and woke up feeling pretty good. I can't do a serious workout for a few weeks but I can walk so I went to the park and walked three miles. Felt great to get off the couch but I ended up taking another pain pill after that because I got a bit sore. I felt funny but I had to keep looking down my shirt to see if I was bleeding, I didn't want to over do it. so I am sure that looked great to anyone who noticed. I also feel this need to hold them in place, like they are just going to fall back down any second. The swelling is going down a bit down which is kind of a bummer because with the swelling it really looked like I already had implants. I guess it gave me a good idea of what I would look like with implants though. So sorry for any bad spelling or weird texts, oh and the half naked ones! Oh and I just had to read my last two blog posts because I don't really recall writing those either! These drugs are no joke. I better go check my email to make sure I didn't buy anything else!

Boobie brain

So I don't know if it is all my meds or what but since my surgery I can't remember crap. I can barely remember what day it is. Yesterday I thought it was about 5 pm when it was only 10 am! Friday I was about to go to bed and remembered Caylea told me I got a package in the mail so I went looking for it. I couldn't find it anywhere. I drilled Caylea about where she put it and she said it was on the counter. It wasn't. Finally about an hour later I realized I had already opened the package earlier. Losing it I tell ya. I am calling it boobie brain. My meds make me soooo tired. I slept twelve hours last night then I was on scrapbook.com this morning and fell asleep multiple times while filling up my cart. But I must say, aside from some slight discomfort around a few of my stitches I am truly amazed at how pain free this surgery has been. Maybe it is because I have kept up on my meds but really I would rather get a lift than go thru labor any day of the week. Plus it is fun to look down my shirt now. Can't believe I waited so long to finally do it. Still have to decide about doing part two, which right now I am pretty swollen so I may not want implants. But once swelling goes down we will see how it really looks. I really kind of feel like a new person. On another note, Caylea has a boy over right now. Lord help me. Oh yeah, it is day 3 post-surgery and NO emotional breakdown!!!!!! Woohoo!

Shyla the druggie

Most of you know I went under the knife yesterday for a little perk up of the girls. I am sparing you the photos, lol. So my nerves didn't really kick in until I got to the office yesterday morning but I did take a Valium the night before in case I was too anxious to sleep. Can I tell you how amazing that drug is? So I get to the office thinking the same thing that went thru my head 15 years ago when I went to the hospital to have Caylea...I really kinda just wanted to go home and avoid any pain. Too late for that. My mom dropped me off and the nurse started my IV in a nice relaxing room with a recliner. She had trouble with my right arm and after digging around she finally went to the left arm. It was about that time I realized I was very close to passing out. Another lady came in for me to sign more release papers and I basically said I would sign whatever she wanted me too but I desperately needed a bathroom. I signed and she pointed me to the bathroom where I ended up laying on the floor for ten minutes. (don't worry, the bathroom and office is spotless so laying on the floor did not seem gross) finally made it back to the room where the gave me four pain pills. I vaguely rember the dr. drawing all over me but I could barely stand at that point with all the drugs. Somehow I got back to the operating room and remember them putting up that blue drape so I couldn't see. I think I slept thru most of it but I know I said a few things. I asked the dr. if he was doing ok, asked the nurses if they get discounts, and can't remember much else. I do remember saying at one point I could feel something, something like a scalpel cutting me but they fixed that right away. Then I was asking "is that all, we are done" and they said yes. Then the nurses cleaned all the iodine off me and I told them thank you for being so nice to me. I remember them talking about how great I looked and the dr. said I would be shocked I had the volume I do without implants. They wrapped me up tight (after complimenting my choice of pants and pretty undies) No pain at all yesterday, like none! Slept all day yesterday, just couldn't keep my eyes open. Today is a bit more sore but nothing unbearable. I got my dressing off today and yikes, lots of blood overnight but the doc said it was normal. Doc also said he impressed himself with this one. From what I can see I looooooove the results! Worth every penny. Loved my dr. and his staff and nurses! I also love my pain pills. I can definitely feel things when I move around now so I am moving slow. Pretty good excuse to lay around and be lazy right now! I just find myself very tired very easily. Overall though I would do it again in a heartbeat. Loooove the dr. I chose! Oh and no drug induced texting, yay me!

Colorado Weekend

 Michelle, Danielle and I had a wonderful trip out to Colorado for Sarah's wedding!  The weather was perfect and we all adored Colorado. 

 All the little towns were so cute.  Michelle and I in Old Town Fort Collins in the photo above.

 We had the BEST mexican food I've ever had while we were there at Palamino's.  I want it right now.  So amazing.  Hilarious waitress and a table behind us that liked to use the "f" word, a lot.  Margaritas were yummy, and we even had sopapillas for dessert, yum. 

 Pre-wedding photos

 I think I carried my camera around the whole wedding and managed to not take any photos?  Not sure how that happened but maybe the white wine had something to do with it.  We had SO much fun at the wedding and LOVED the photobooth.  Sarah and Phil both looked awesome and we had a blast! 

 The day after the wedding we went up to Estes Park and drove into Rocky Mountain National Park.  We got stuck by several Elk in the road.  Michelle and I jumped out of the car to take photos. 

 And this guy came trotting right up along the road...we kind of high tailed it back into the car.  They are really large animals.  :)

 Thanks to Danielle for driving because we reminded her several times to keep her eyes on the road since there were no guard rails and oh, only a HUGE drop off the side of the mountain. 

 Such pretty scenery

 Our last day we made it to Boulder, another cute little town to walk around in.  We found this yummy cafe for lunch. We ate outside every chance we got. 

 Cute stores everywhere!

Sunset after dinner at Nordy's BBQ.  More great food.  Seriously good food in Colorado.  This post was a bad idea actually because I had cereal for dinner and now I could go for some enchiladas, macaroni and cheese, and an egg salad sandwich.  We discovered why Sarah loves it on Colorado.  And I was super impressed with how pet friendly they are, pet bowls and dogs everywhere!  Such a fun and relaxing trip.  So glad we decided to go and we are so happy for Sarah and Phil! 

Waiting

I am laying in my 82 degree house waiting on the AC guy to get here and hoping he gets here early in the five hour window they gave me. I got home from Chicago yesterday to a very hot house and have felt like crap to top it off. migraines and heat do not mix. last night I played with the circuit breakers, then cried when it still wouldn't work. Managed to sleep with the help of Advil PM but woke up feeling icky. headache snuck back up on me today. Took a two hour nap and the headache is still holding on. I hate headaches and broken ACs.

Reunited and it feels so good

First day back at the gym after a long break and it felt fantastic. Back at it.